i know i will regret saying all this in the morning.

right im not interested in you.. i never was.okay i was for abit. but im forgetting about you. i want a fresh start. just leave me alone.i dont want anything to do with you.

I'll tell you what the end of the world will be like. It will be a final moment; both terrible & heartbreaking. Absolute chaos. People running as fast as they ever have, cars filling every road & freeway, phone lines backed up trying to process millions of calls, fingers flying over keyboards, thumbs texting like rapid fire, long lines of people trying to cram themselves into subways & airplanes. All of them trying to tell someone else, "i love you". It's not the end of the world yet. but don't wait until then to tell her. The worst thing isn't the end of the world. It's what you didn't finish; what you didn't say when you had the chance.

i wish it didn't hurt.
i wish i didn't care.
i wish i didn't matter.
i wish i was happy.
i wish i had money.
i wish i was pretty.
i wish i could sleep at night.
i wish i enjoyed my life
i wish i could just enjoy food.
i wish you were here.
i wish you meant it.
i wish i meant it.
i wish i was different.
i wish i lived somewhere else.
i wish i didn't exist.

how come all of a sudden your being 'off' with me.. i miss you.

or you can just ignore me.. thats cool

Those minutes where i am alone,just me and my pillow.I think. A lot. I think about everything,anything.It varies from ''what am i doing with my life?'' to ''did i have any homework?'' The room is so silent, but my mind is so loud.It drives me crazy because the things i wouldnt never think about, i think about.Sometimes, i hate it because it brings up things i rather never think about again.The split second before sleep is the most active second of my life.