last night i finally told him that i loved him. I knew already that he didn't love me back, but what i was scared about was the reply he would give.he simply said ' its okay, i wont let it affect our friendship don't worry'.it may be simple enough for him, but its not for me.you see, i waited five months before i told him, each day saying to myself 'today i will tell him'.It all climaxed to that exact moment.he may have forgotten about it after a hour or so, but this will stay with me forever.everyone i have talked to says to me to always tell the person you love that you love them, because they didn't have the chance to do that, whereas i should jump at the chance.in my heart i feel abit better, some relief that no matter what, if he walks away or stays, i have done all i can do.no matter where we are or how hard it gets, I'll always be in love with him.

If you love someone tell him/her.Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous.What is truly ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her.

But who knows maybe one day we'll be perfect for each other

I gave up because you never once fought for me.

i feel so tired but i can't sleep. and its all because of you.

Im not a full on catholic. Yes i go to a catholic school but i dont worship god every sundays and do all that. But i feel like i have to feel abit gratefull sometimes. So before i go to bed, well as i am led in bed i pray. I don't resite all these old prayers that i havent a clue what means. But i say things that relate to myself, like look after my family etc. I remember when i used to stop over at my grandmars and she used to pray to herself everynight, ide look at her so peacefull and content.She died at 72,which is quite young.But i know for a fact that she is in heaven. i love you grandmar.

i don't want to forget about you. But remembering what we used to be. is killing me