Saturday, 27 March 2010

she needs someone who deserves her. someone to tell her she's gorgeous, someone to put the light back in her eyes.

Friday, 26 March 2010

i know i will regret saying all this in the morning.

right im not interested in you.. i never was.okay i was for abit. but im forgetting about you. i want a fresh start. just leave me alone.i dont want anything to do with you.
I'll tell you what the end of the world will be like. It will be a final moment; both terrible & heartbreaking. Absolute chaos. People running as fast as they ever have, cars filling every road & freeway, phone lines backed up trying to process millions of calls, fingers flying over keyboards, thumbs texting like rapid fire, long lines of people trying to cram themselves into subways & airplanes. All of them trying to tell someone else, "i love you". It's not the end of the world yet. but don't wait until then to tell her. The worst thing isn't the end of the world. It's what you didn't finish; what you didn't say when you had the chance.
i wish it didn't hurt.
i wish i didn't care.
i wish i didn't matter.
i wish i was happy.
i wish i had money.
i wish i was pretty.
i wish i could sleep at night.
i wish i enjoyed my life
i wish i could just enjoy food.
i wish you were here.
i wish you meant it.
i wish i meant it.
i wish i was different.
i wish i lived somewhere else.
i wish i didn't exist.
how come all of a sudden your being 'off' with me.. i miss you.
or you can just ignore me.. thats cool
Those minutes where i am alone,just me and my pillow.I think. A lot. I think about everything,anything.It varies from ''what am i doing with my life?'' to ''did i have any homework?'' The room is so silent, but my mind is so loud.It drives me crazy because the things i wouldnt never think about, i think about.Sometimes, i hate it because it brings up things i rather never think about again.The split second before sleep is the most active second of my life.
" You’re mad, bonkers, off your head! But I’ll tell you a secret: All the best people are. "
- Charles Kingsleigh, Alice in Wonderland
today someone called you with my last name.
i just wish that jogged your memory of what we had..

Wednesday, 24 March 2010

i still remember how it felt, when you loved me.

im mad at myself, not you.I'm mad for always being nice,
for always apologizing when i did nothing wrong,
for getting attached and making you
a huge part of my life.
maybe one day i'll be able to put my pride aside and tell you how much i miss you
but untill then i'll just have to keep my secret locked away.

have a nice day.

i dont want to be somebody you forget
i have finally come to terms that secrets are necessary
you give me the feeling, people write novels about.
and in the back of my mind i was always thinking, how long until you become another memory? now i know.
your acting like your somebody else, getting me frustrated..
dear mum and dad,
please stop fighting over me.

today someone saw us talking and said we would make a good couple and asked if we were going out. you replied no were not going out and you have been going out with your girlfriend for a year..

that broke my heart, once more again.
i loved talking to you and you loved talking to me. you would say you loved me and i would too..
i come home one day and you wont speak to me, you ignore me and say i annoy you..
what happened?

Monday, 22 March 2010

i still think about you .. always

Thursday, 11 March 2010

i love you.

i wish you'd never changed.and i wish i was her.